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Post by autumn rachel moreau on Jan 4, 2013 18:34:23 GMT -5
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-image:url(http://psd.fanextra.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/01/cleang1.jpg); width: 457px; padding-top: 30; padding-bottom: 30; -moz-border-radius: 35 35 35 35; -webkit-border-radius: 35 35 35 35;]hi » BRIGHT LIGHTS, Autumn just held Des there, rather tightly. She didn't want him to disappear - not that he really could, but still Autumn held on anyway. He wrapped his arms around her. He was precious. So precious. Fate, luck. These were words Autumn would probably later associate with their meeting. And she really did feel lucky and grated to have met Des - it was possible that he'd saved part of her, too. She didn't exactly know what part, but she felt like she was more complete, somehow. "It's all okay, Autumn," Des said to her, "It will all be okay." And the way that he said it, Autumn actually believed that. Not that she was depressed all the time, no, she could be happy. It was just that sometimes, some days, she remembered somethings she didn't want to.
Once she felt better she let go of him and laughed, for no particular reason. She just felt so happy. In all honesty, she'd always wanted a sibling. She always thought that if she had a sibling, maybe her parents wouldn't hurt her. Maybe her sibling would protect her, or maybe she'd protect her sibling. It was something that Autumn longed for, when her parents made her stay in the house. A little company was what she'd wanted, even at home. And maybe, Des had been that sibling. He felt like an older brother, and Autumn loved that. And they just clicked - it surprised her that they'd only met… However long ago. Autumn didn't know. She wasn't keeping track of time. They'd been there a while, she knew that.
"We should do this again," she said to him. And whens she thought about it, the worst part was coming up soon. Goodbye. It usually didn't make her too sad, but they were having fun. Unexpected fun. Spontaneous fun. Given, coming close to tears wasn't all that fun, but they had a good time. It wasn't totally miserable. And Des was a good guy - he was great. And to have to leave this atmosphere made her sad. Just a tiny bit. But she knew they'd be in touch. She knew she could always see him again. And that made her happier. Autumn decided to enjoy the moment. It was for the better.
"Hey Des! Give me your number," she insisted with a laugh, "I haven't got a phone yet, but I'm getting one soon. I promise I'll keep your number until I get it!" she nudged him with her shoulder, grinning. She would get a phone just for him. Just so they could stay in touch. "You know, I bet you're used to this," she teased, "giving girls your number, I mean." she laughed. "That being said… I have to know… Do you have a… significant other?" Autumn put emphasis on the "significant" part. Just cause. She was half teasing, half serious. She really was curious about it. Autumn had only had one boyfriend. They weren't even serious; she wasn't the one who asked. That being said, she wasn't the type of person to just say yes for the heck of it.
But she wondered what it would be like to have that type of person in her life. Then again, she didn't know that it was like to actually be in love. Autumn wasn't exactly looking either. She was single, and she didn't mind it. She didn't need the drama that came with boyfriends. Or at least, the drama that supposedly came with boyfriends. The only real experience she'd had was what she'd heard from her friends. With her boyfriend, there hadn't been much drama. In fact, there really hadn't been anything at all. She did like him, but maybe just not enough. And her friends were not a great source. She knew that. But at the same time, it was all she had to work with. Besides, was having someone else really that great?
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Post by Desmond Tatum Thorton on Jan 21, 2013 1:57:48 GMT -5
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=width,415,bTable] | [atrb=style, background-color: #D0C6A4; border-top: 5px solid #75531E; border-bottom: 5px solid #75531E;][STYLE=border: 4px solid #75531E; height: 100px; width: 100px; margin-left: 15px; margin-bottom: -33px; margin-top: 7px;][/style][STYLE=float: right; width: 277px; font-size: 50px; color: #75531E; font-family: georgia; text-align: center; margin-right: 15px; margin-left: 123px; text-transform: lowercase; margin-top: -45px; letter-spacing: -3px;]MY SACRIFICE[/style][STYLE=background-color: #EFE9E0; border-top: 4px solid #75531E; margin-right: 15px; font-family: arial narrow; letter-spacing: 2px; font-size: 11px; margin-bottom: -9px; margin-left: 123px; padding: 5px; text-align: center; text-transform: uppercase; color: #75531E;]ABOVE ALL THE OTHERS, WE'LL FLY[/style] [STYLE=margin-right: 15px; margin-left: 15px; font-size: 10px; font-family: arial; text-align: justify; background-color: #EFE9E0; padding: 17px; color: #3C2E16; margin-top: 8px; opacity: 0.9; border-top: 4px solid #75531E; border-right: 1px dotted #9D6F25; border-left: 1px dotted #75531E;]Des couldn't really explain what he was feeling right now. But it sort of felt like he was back to the way he was when he was a kid. He felt like he was with family and it was rather nice. So did that mean that he would be the older brother in thus situation, right? That actually scared him. He didn't know how to be an older brother, let alone be a good little brother to Thor. He was afraid that he would mess everything up for Autumn like he was doing for Thor and he didn't want that to happen. He was very afraid of ruining something like this. He fought back the tears as he held her a bit tighter. He needed to stop thinking about all this but he couldn't.
That's when he felt her let go of him and heard her laugh and inwardly, he sort of panicked. Had he done something? He shook his head and forced that thought from his mind. he hadn't done anything that he could remember. Then again, he was deep in thought for a while there. So maybe he said something aloud that he didn't realize. he'd just have to wait and see then. "We should do this again." He gave her a smile although he was still feeling a bit depressed deep down. But he had to make sure that he didn't show it right now. Autumn was happy and he didn't want to ruin that with his mood. His mood didn't matter right now so he was gonna keep on a smile until he was alone. "Yeah, we should."
"Hey Des! Give me your number. I haven't got a phone yet, but I'm getting one soon. I promise I'll keep your number until I get it!" He nodded and pulled out his journal from his messenger bag along with a pen. He wrote it down and tried his best to make it easy for her to read because most of the time his handwriting was very hard to read. When he was done, he handed it to her with a smile. "Here you go." He chuckled a bit when he felt her nudge him. he was feeling a bit better already. "You know, I bet you're used to this," she teased, "giving girls your number, I mean." He chuckled and rubbed the back of his neck, trying to hide the blush that was beginning to form on his cheeks. "I, uh... am not actually used to this sort of thing. I've never much dated back in life."
He never really dated anyone until he died and ended up here. And that was only once with Juno. But now, he had a rather successful relationship with Bambi, his dearest friend and the only one he ever felt close to for so long. But he was beginning to feel close again with Thor. He just needed to relax and he was actually rather afraid of ruining it. And God himself knew just how far Des could go when he was depressed and losing everyone he cared about. And if things ended up that way, Thor would go on a killing spree around the Dirge, sparing no one. Because Thor would lose the only one here that knew him and that truly cared about him for something other than drugs. "That being said… I have to know… Do you have a… significant other?"
He blinked, wondering why she would ask but he smiled sweetly as he nodded. "Yes I do. She's amazing, sweet, clever, loyal. We've been so incredibly close since we were kids. I really do love my Bambi. Her name's Faline but I've always called her Bambi. And I love her with all my heart." It took him a moment to realize just how sappy and lovestruck he was being. "Ah, sorry. I tend to get like that when I think about her." He loved his Bambi dearly and there was no one else out there that he would ever want. No one knew him like she did. No one knew how much he's suffered except her. And he would still be a mess with anyone other than her. So he needed her, just as much if not more than she needed him. But anyone could tell that he was deeply and happily in love and that would never change.
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Post by autumn rachel moreau on Feb 9, 2013 11:59:58 GMT -5
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"Here you go," he said, pushing the piece of paper towards her. She smiled and laughed a bit. She took the paper and tucked it into her pocket. "I'll keep it safe, I promise!" she said, holding out her pinky. Pinky promises. Autumn didn't know why, but she loved it. It was simple, but so childish it had this sort of innocence. "Pinky promise! They're the strongest promises!" she told Des. And she really did believe it. It was almost stupid, but she still did it. She really should have stopped doing it, it was really childish, but she felt like they actually meant something.
When Autumn mentioned girls, Des chuckled and rubbed the back of his neck. And was he blushing? Autumn laughed. He really was adorable. She nudged him again, grinning. "I, uh… am not actually used to this sort of thing. I've never dated much back in life." Autumn did an over exaggerated gasp, covering her mouth. "Des! Desmond Thorton! Desmond insert-middle name Thorton! You'd better not be lying to me!" she teased, "I don't believe you!" She really couldn't. He was such a nice guy, seemed pretty outgoing, and his overall personality was just… Sweet. Plus he did theater. Autumn knew a few girls that would probably love to date him. Autumn had this belief that nice guys didn't finish last. Because she couldn't see why any girl would want to date a jerk.
She checked his expression when she asked about a girlfriend. He seemed surprised, but he smiled. Somehow, Autumn could tell he was already thinking of someone. He nodded. She was right. "Yes I do. She's amazing, sweet, clever, loyal. We've been so incredibly close since we were kids. I really do love my Bambi. Her name's Faline but I've always called her Bambi. And I love her with all my heart." He said. Autumn almost hugged him. He was literally adorable. "I knew it!" Autumn exclaimed with a laugh. "Ah, sorry. I tend to get like that when I think about her." He sounded a bit shy afterwards, but Autumn just smiled. "Don't be sorry! I'm really happy for you."
So he did have someone, huh? He looked happy. Maybe having someone else was worth it. But Autumn didn't know. What did love feel like? People claimed they liked her, yet, somehow Autumn didn't feel it. Their promises of love felt empty. And it almost made Autumn sad. She wished that she could find that connection. But could she? She didn't even know what she was going to feel when "love" came around. Maybe she'd already missed it. And for some reason, Autumn wanted to know how it would feel. She wanted something she didn't understand.
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Post by Desmond Tatum Thorton on May 18, 2013 4:19:10 GMT -5
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"I'll keep it safe, I promise!" Des chuckled a bit and nodded. "I trust you, don't worry." That's when he saw her put her pinky finger out to him. "Pinky promise! They're the strongest promises!" He smiled and linked his pinky finger with her's although with his fingers being rather long, it might have looked a bit odd. "Pinky promise." Des had done these when he was a kid, mostly with his mother but there were times when he did them with Thor. And it brought back good memories, memories that remained safe within his heart. And then she laughed at his embarrassment over the mention of him dating people back in life. "Des! Desmond Thorton! Desmond insert-middle name Thorton! You'd better not be lying to me! I don't believe you!"
He blinked, shrinking back a little. It was an honest reflex of the past when he was a kid. It reminded him of his mother scolding him and Thor for doing something bad, which was one of their many crazy plans. "It's true. I don't really talk to people much. I have a fear of being left alone and that huge loss I suffered played a large hand in that fear so I never really opened myself up to others. I was so afraid that if I let people in, they'd just leave without a word. So I guess in a way, I have abandonment issues. But here, I'm trying to change that. My first girlfriend was here although she did what I am still afraid of but I have Bambi now and I think I'm getting better." He still had a long way to go to get over his fear but he was working on it.
It was odd. Here he was telling Autumn a lot of his life and his past and he had only just met her. But he adored her like a little sister. Maybe that's why he found it so easy to speak to her about such personal things. "I knew it! Don't be sorry! I'm really happy for you." He still felt a bit embarrassed for rambling but he nodded. "Thank you, dear. It's just...she makes me feel so happy and at peace. It's sort of difficult to explain." He finally took a sip of his tea once more and was actually in a rather pleasant mood. "Oh, and I'll definitely invite you to my theatre shows so you can see me act if you'd like."
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